Tag: personal story
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I’m Out
Just when I think I am getting my life together, everything goes wrong. I feel like a capable adult, I think like a capable adult. I make complicated plans; based on a broad knowledge and intelligent reasoning, I have the skills to do many things extremely well. But I never get anywhere. I can’t get…
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Teens, Tantrums & Technical Difficulties.
Friday Night Attack of the Terribly Twisted Teens After a last minute panic; no one had informed the fish or Danger the axylotl of the impending invasion. Plus I owned glass markers and had only annoyed the kids a couple of times with them. So obviously I wrote on all 3 tanks (backwards so they…
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Sweet Sixteen
Happy birthday sweet sixteen! My 3rd daughter is 16 (31st). I can not post much because I have spent the day making a 78 page card (I am known for my mean cards) a fully illustrated book picking on the recipient using their favourite things. In this case pretending that 16 is the age where…
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I Hate School Fairs
In every part of my body I ache I’ve eaten all the chocolate cake I walked for miles to sell some books Braving the cold & disparaging looks And now my toils are all but done The profits are for another one “It’s for the kids” is the rallying cry I’ve done my part, so…
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Insane Week
Monday morning 7:00 on our way to School Banking at the kids’ old school, the start of the week from hell. By the time we returned home at 9:30. We set up Book Fair late Friday afternoon, Monday morning some of the P&FA went and helped finish (without me). Look intellectually it was a great…
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Today Toys Tomorrow Books
Today I went to a toy and collectibles fair with my eldest daughter and her support worker. I was terrified and every step towards the place I felt like running away. I joked about running and kept going. We bought the tickets and we were trapped. There were so many people, so much noise, bright…
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An Issue of Trust
Trust has always been difficult for me, its probably my autism again; but to be perfectly frank my mother hasn’t helped. Not her fault but like many parents; myself definitely included, my mother has tried to protect me from possible harm. I love her for it but I think she may be wrong this time.…
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So What’s Wrong Now?
Last 5 days I have been ‘unwell’. So yet again I play the lovely game of what’s wrong this time? I know this is not a game exclusively for autistics; but we have a whole level of complexity with our ultra speed psychosomatic reactions as well as our comprised internal sensory system; hyper sensitivity and absence or…
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How I Started To Write
I’ve always wanted to write. And at about 9 years old I wrote something that was considered amazing by teachers etc, I was identified as gifted. For the rest of my school career I usually wrote at an above average level with occasional flashes of brilliance. But I could never write at any length. If…
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Writing Nonsense In My Sleep!
I have recently discovered a new super power. When I am sleepy I can spin words into nonsense. When I was a child and last week my mother could always tell when I was overtired, because I would become chatty; animated, fun and chatty. Alcohol works as well but there’s a family history and well…