Tag: personal story
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Waiting
To make an appointment we had to go, Sit at Social Security for an hour or so. Masses of people buzzing around, No eating or drinking signs abound. Alex was on her computer to try & stay sane, I had my writing pad to do the same, Mum had her Kindle, so she was alright.…
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Agoraphobia. Part 6 The End
Part 1 Part 5 Unfortunately it is difficult to push the little fledglings out if we won’t leave ourselves. So, frankly, I am being forced into the horrible, ‘real’ world for the sake of my kids. I hate maternal instinct. And please realise I know that I am doing all this…
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Agoraphobia. Part 5
Part 1 Part 4 It’s confusing; a neurotypical friend of ours called fairly last minute to cancel an outing because she had a headache. My brood were very confused. “But Mum, you can’t cancel something for a headache.” I had to explain to them that people that rarely have headaches need to…
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Agoraphobia. Part 4
Part 1 Part 3 Not that I’m any better! Left alone I sometimes feel I need a shower about half the time I fall; only when I’m alone, I seem to have a lemming (actually the lemming thing is a myth) instinct and am inexplicably drawn to the shower when I am…
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Update on the Crazies
They are all sick, they have some sort of virus & they are not taking my orders or doing my bidding; can you imagine the gall. Okay maybe not all of them; Cat is just suffering from sullen resentfulness; so no change there. And Tash is just exhausted because she got home at 12:00 last…
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Agoraphobia. Part 3
Part 1 Part 2 You see there is nothing out there that is sufficient compensation for the fear, pain, confusion and humiliation. Add to that my husband and our oldest two faint under stress, I become immobile, talk too indiscriminately and can’t eat/drink properly, they all have a tendency to wander and/or…
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Agoraphobia. Part 2
Part 1 The second eldest doesn’t object to going out, she doesn’t cooperate but at least she doesn’t object. Why don’t I ask her if she wants to go out? Because half the time she is nonverbal, and discussing feelings or going places is likely to trigger her. When she is awake properly she is…
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Agoraphobia. Part 1
Crazy or A Truer Kind of Sanity. I think the constant enemy of the Autistic parent raising Autistic children is the knowledge; deep within your soul, that you would all be happier alone (together) locked up in your house. Home is lovely; strong & solid. Calming shades of blue, marine & purple; tones that reduce…
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The Castle is Lost
It’s the end, the beloved battlefield; Castle Cat, is finished. Admittedly it is 3 years old and has been well loved, but recently pieces have started to fall down. Probably not helped by repeated invasions by the rabbit brothers. With one big kick Whisper dislodged one of the perches so it was over. Fortunately we…
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Moving Forward
Cheerier news today! For a few months now we (my support worker &I) have been working on my fear of going outside. I’ve been to a dog park twice but mainly I have restarted gardening. When we first moved here a couple of years ago I managed to garden a little. The yards were paved…