Lots of stuff has been escaping into my head lately while I’ve been distracted by feeling sick and dizzy. I’ve spoken to quite a few people, read blogs, magazines and books. plus Alex got this weird book of obscure facts that she & Gavin have taken to randomly announcing. So if I have copied your idea, sorry. But I’ve realised something and it is hard enough to keep hold of the ideas let alone guess/remember where they came from.

So I was reading something about how racism is connected with familiarity not real racism; ie kids are born with a predisposition towards noticing and possibly; during times of upset, a little fear of other races. Real racism is then taught by confused and/or evil people. I’m not talking about racism, I might be racist I don’t know, I’m predominantly Anglo background so that’s a bad start.

But why if we are naturally mistrustful of dissimilar people and naturally drawn to similar people do I have a weird trust/attraction thing to people who do not look like me.

Born as I was in a tiny country town on the southern tip of Victoria, Australia, to be quickly taken to an even smaller ‘town’ I didn’t see a lot of people. At some point I saw Star Trek (the original I am old), this may have been the first time I was exposed to a people who thought differently. There was my father but I didn’t see an awful lot of him & he was a lot more erratic. Anyway; Mr Spock had problems dealing with or even recognising his emotions, he was smarter than everyone and yet could not understand the strange behaviour of those around him. I; dealing with undiagnosed Autism; had all these issues. My previous heroes Robin Hood (the Disney fox version), Peter Pan & The Muppets’ Swedish Chef suddenly paled. I was a Vulcan and I loved Mr Spock. Mr Sulu also appealed to me; calm, brilliant, a follower, warrior, history buff & botanist.

But suddenly the other day I realised Paris in Mission Impossible is also gorgeous (Leonard Nimoy who played Mr Spock also played Paris to those of you who are sub ancient). Yes I am just now watching the original Mission Impossible for the first time, I can’t explain my life I’m too busy trying to survive it.
Mr Spock using the overarching similarity of not having a human brain has warped my perception of familiar which is why I tend to trust and/or am attracted to dark haired, exotic or Asiatic looking men (& women). Star Trek warped my innocent childish mind to … To gain absolutely nothing.
Did I have a point? I should not be allowed on the internet when I feel this dizzy. Ignore everything you may have read. Look puppies:
Kittens:
Butterflies:

No, not me!
Don’t look at me!

Just forget you were ever here!
What, I don’t know what you are talking about.
I was never here!


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