Category: I Actually Mean This
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Why I never read your posts!
There is one simple reason I don’t read some blogs I follow. Their posts come up in my Reader but not an email notification. Yes it is that simple loyal yet disgruntled follower. I have sensory problems (I am autistic, I don’t mention this enough) and I find the Reader format triggering. I have tried…
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I’m A Little Scared
Neurofeedback gave my life clarity, it enabled me to write. I thought my life was finally going somewhere. I have being doing things I haven’t done in years, I’ve been doing things I’ve never done. I was shocked at my lack of anxiety and how much I was getting done. I had a melt down…
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Just When You think You are A Together Adult
Serious warning the following is humourless and true. Read it if you want to know more about Autism in Adults. Otherwise skip it. Believe me. I am physically sore and emotionally spent. It has been almost 6 hours but my eyes sting and feel dried out & sticky, my cheeks are still swollen and hot.…
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Neurodiversity & Other Disability Activism Scares Me
Every human being wants dignity, I get that. I’d love a bit of dignity, but not at any price. I don’t know about anyone else on the Autism Spectrum but I know what will happen to me if I stop being supported by the state, I would die; suicide, starvation, victim of crime, I don’t…
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Moving Forward
Cheerier news today! For a few months now we (my support worker &I) have been working on my fear of going outside. I’ve been to a dog park twice but mainly I have restarted gardening. When we first moved here a couple of years ago I managed to garden a little. The yards were paved…
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I’m Out
Just when I think I am getting my life together, everything goes wrong. I feel like a capable adult, I think like a capable adult. I make complicated plans; based on a broad knowledge and intelligent reasoning, I have the skills to do many things extremely well. But I never get anywhere. I can’t get…
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The Worst News
My beautiful angelic aunt Val had more brain damage than they previously thought. They turned off the machines on Wednesday. Something in her valiantly fought, so she did not pass over on the birthday of her great niece Wednesday or her son’s on Thursday. She held on somehow, this morning when her family left to…
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Hurrah a New Blogging Class
I started blogging because the members of the writing circle I joined suggested it, but I didn’t know how to start. The writer’s centre – Katharine Susannah Prichard Writers’ Centre, was having a class called Blogging 101. I attended, I loved it; it not only answered all my questions it was fantastic. I went home…
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Insane Week
Monday morning 7:00 on our way to School Banking at the kids’ old school, the start of the week from hell. By the time we returned home at 9:30. We set up Book Fair late Friday afternoon, Monday morning some of the P&FA went and helped finish (without me). Look intellectually it was a great…
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Today Toys Tomorrow Books
Today I went to a toy and collectibles fair with my eldest daughter and her support worker. I was terrified and every step towards the place I felt like running away. I joked about running and kept going. We bought the tickets and we were trapped. There were so many people, so much noise, bright…