I have 45 years of depression and anxiety cycles behind me. I know how they work. I know so well that the knowledge has for years blunted the deeper end of depression. I go down, triggered by a mixture of sensory hazards; summer heat & brightness for example, memory; an event that has caused problems … Continue reading What’s Happening? Warning depressing content.
I was asked to write a biography to go with an application for a volunteer position. I thought it might interest people crazy enough to read my other rubbish. I love you, my crazy followers! Lisa Holt I was born in a tiny town in Gippsland Victoria, because my parents lived in an even smaller … Continue reading My Life – A Job Application
I write a lot of silly things. Cool, I'm not apologizing for that. But; and it's a big but (he he I said 'big butt', I am autistic. And not one of these brilliantly successful, holding down a job, passing for normal autistics. I am an old, diagnosed late, clinically depressed, high anxiety autistic. I … Continue reading Warning, Disclaimer, Whatever
I have written a letter I plan to send to some local politicians. To understand it Centrelink is our Social Security benefits agency, and NDIA is a new system for funding disabled people. Autism is impossible to explain. Just a note I have met one person that defrauded Social Security; he was probably a Sociopath, … Continue reading Biting the Hand That Feeds Us!
Wednesday the cheap mechanics returned from holidays and we started getting quotes to replace the head gasket & timing belt. They ranged from $1300 to $750 & the cheapest was a mobile mechanic so we wouldn't need a tow. He was out first thing Thursday morning and as soon as he started removing parts he … Continue reading RIP Dizzy the Sweetest Trajet in the World!
You've heard it before and until someone legislates you will hear it again. I hate modern packaging. I read an article a while back that people are actually being injured, even hospitalised opening packaging. Plastic as sharp as knives needing to be cut opened at an angle that forces the opener to leave their veins … Continue reading Christmas & Clamshells – A Cutting Combination
A few days before Christmas I was wrapping presents late at night. The children were all asleep and behind a closed door, my husband had stepped into the front room. I saw a grey shadow unmoving in front of the closed door. I knew it was a man although I cannot describe any features. I … Continue reading Christmas Spirits?
I just received two traffic infringement notices by email. Sounds fishy right? Did I check it out just to be sure? I was really tempted to because as an autistic person I was concerned that I had done something wrong. Reasons I did not: "Null" as my address Zip code; in Aust. we call it … Continue reading Email Warning
There is one simple reason I don't read some blogs I follow. Their posts come up in my Reader but not an email notification. Yes it is that simple loyal yet disgruntled follower. I have sensory problems (I am autistic, I don't mention this enough) and I find the Reader format triggering. I have tried … Continue reading Why I never read your posts!
Neurofeedback gave my life clarity, it enabled me to write. I thought my life was finally going somewhere. I have being doing things I haven't done in years, I've been doing things I've never done. I was shocked at my lack of anxiety and how much I was getting done. I had a melt down … Continue reading I’m A Little Scared