Tag: stress
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In the Spirit of Spreading the Message
First to all my caring followers I am absolutely fine, and so is the rest of the family. But I think its important to disseminate information about autism including subjective experiences. One day a really smart person will collect all these little tidbits and who knows what will & won’t be useful in the final…
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Help My Computer Has Been Hijacked by Windows 10 Anniversary Update!
My beloved computer was hijacked this morning. I turned it on and without any warning it began an update. It has been 8 hours of black screens & blue flashing lights with no sign of change. I am desolate. I have been writing with paper & ink; in this day & age its, its, its…
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Waiting
To make an appointment we had to go, Sit at Social Security for an hour or so. Masses of people buzzing around, No eating or drinking signs abound. Alex was on her computer to try & stay sane, I had my writing pad to do the same, Mum had her Kindle, so she was alright.…
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Agoraphobia. Part 6 The End
Part 1 Part 5 Unfortunately it is difficult to push the little fledglings out if we won’t leave ourselves. So, frankly, I am being forced into the horrible, ‘real’ world for the sake of my kids. I hate maternal instinct. And please realise I know that I am doing all this…
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Agoraphobia. Part 3
Part 1 Part 2 You see there is nothing out there that is sufficient compensation for the fear, pain, confusion and humiliation. Add to that my husband and our oldest two faint under stress, I become immobile, talk too indiscriminately and can’t eat/drink properly, they all have a tendency to wander and/or…
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Agoraphobia. Part 2
Part 1 The second eldest doesn’t object to going out, she doesn’t cooperate but at least she doesn’t object. Why don’t I ask her if she wants to go out? Because half the time she is nonverbal, and discussing feelings or going places is likely to trigger her. When she is awake properly she is…
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Agoraphobia. Part 1
Crazy or A Truer Kind of Sanity. I think the constant enemy of the Autistic parent raising Autistic children is the knowledge; deep within your soul, that you would all be happier alone (together) locked up in your house. Home is lovely; strong & solid. Calming shades of blue, marine & purple; tones that reduce…
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I Hate School Fairs
In every part of my body I ache I’ve eaten all the chocolate cake I walked for miles to sell some books Braving the cold & disparaging looks And now my toils are all but done The profits are for another one “It’s for the kids” is the rallying cry I’ve done my part, so…
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Insane Week
Monday morning 7:00 on our way to School Banking at the kids’ old school, the start of the week from hell. By the time we returned home at 9:30. We set up Book Fair late Friday afternoon, Monday morning some of the P&FA went and helped finish (without me). Look intellectually it was a great…
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Today Toys Tomorrow Books
Today I went to a toy and collectibles fair with my eldest daughter and her support worker. I was terrified and every step towards the place I felt like running away. I joked about running and kept going. We bought the tickets and we were trapped. There were so many people, so much noise, bright…