Tag: psychology
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Agoraphobia. Part 3
Part 1 Part 2 You see there is nothing out there that is sufficient compensation for the fear, pain, confusion and humiliation. Add to that my husband and our oldest two faint under stress, I become immobile, talk too indiscriminately and can’t eat/drink properly, they all have a tendency to wander and/or…
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Agoraphobia. Part 2
Part 1 The second eldest doesn’t object to going out, she doesn’t cooperate but at least she doesn’t object. Why don’t I ask her if she wants to go out? Because half the time she is nonverbal, and discussing feelings or going places is likely to trigger her. When she is awake properly she is…
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Agoraphobia. Part 1
Crazy or A Truer Kind of Sanity. I think the constant enemy of the Autistic parent raising Autistic children is the knowledge; deep within your soul, that you would all be happier alone (together) locked up in your house. Home is lovely; strong & solid. Calming shades of blue, marine & purple; tones that reduce…
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I’m Out
Just when I think I am getting my life together, everything goes wrong. I feel like a capable adult, I think like a capable adult. I make complicated plans; based on a broad knowledge and intelligent reasoning, I have the skills to do many things extremely well. But I never get anywhere. I can’t get…
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An Issue of Trust
Trust has always been difficult for me, its probably my autism again; but to be perfectly frank my mother hasn’t helped. Not her fault but like many parents; myself definitely included, my mother has tried to protect me from possible harm. I love her for it but I think she may be wrong this time.…
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So What’s Wrong Now?
Last 5 days I have been ‘unwell’. So yet again I play the lovely game of what’s wrong this time? I know this is not a game exclusively for autistics; but we have a whole level of complexity with our ultra speed psychosomatic reactions as well as our comprised internal sensory system; hyper sensitivity and absence or…
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How I Started To Write
I’ve always wanted to write. And at about 9 years old I wrote something that was considered amazing by teachers etc, I was identified as gifted. For the rest of my school career I usually wrote at an above average level with occasional flashes of brilliance. But I could never write at any length. If…
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Not A Good Day!
I’ll start with the worst news, starting at the important bit my aunt is alive; my aunt was on holiday in Germany and was hit by a truck. My aunt is the most beautiful woman I have ever met inside and out. She has beautiful long dark hair & dark eyes and is tall and…
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Frustration Eating Me Alive! Part 1
A child on the school stage plays a wrong note. Ha, triumph; this will teach you to steal my child’s limelight. A second bad note, oh my God, that poor child! How can I be such a monster? She’s my child’s friend! But I feel that my kids need to be seen. They need their…
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Dyslexic Daughter upDate
In my normal style of dealing with anything I have acquired books about my daughter’s 2 new conditions. I can’t read them yet. When I find a subject stressful I find when I try to read about it the words swim & hurt my head (more than usual). I often read by mentally spiraling the…