My darkness

As the pain deepens

The chasm widens

Every approach from either side

Does some more damage

Crossing the bridge
A man crosses over the bridge shaped as a cross

The gulf more wide

I speak to my children

I try to explain

Then fall back into habit and only complain

Airplane Lightning Strike
Airplane Lightning Strike Illustration. Stormy NIght Sky with Lightning Bolt Striking in the Jet Plane. Vertical Photo.

They don’t understand me

To me they’re a mystery

The harder  we struggle

The harder we try


We’re still in a muddle

Still just getting by.

I don’t want to do damage

I want their lives to be better

Dark Fantasy Background
Dark Fantasy Background

but I can’t do anything right

I am just not that clever

I must admit defeat

and look into the voidtree-branches-at-moon-night_fytavyfd

It is time to retreat.

leave behind this cruel world.


Published by autistsix

An autistic woman married to an autistic man trying to raise 4 autistic daughters in a neurotypical world

7 thoughts on “My darkness

      1. Actually as a parenting tip after a week of gentle support & calm suggestions, I shouted at her, I’ve asked you nicely 3 times now I’m telling you; you will talk to us. Instant results. To me this confirms my instincts, my family respond to clear loud orders not kindness.


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